Hi :-)

I've been totally out of it lately. I miss writing...expressing all the things I don't get to say. It seems as though I avoid all my feelings and writing....because writing means I have to confront everything that's happening around me.

I've been undergoing some changes recently, some of which are good. The rest seems fuzzy, it's difficult to understand what exactly I'm feeling. It's odd though...you feel fine sometimes...and BOOM...major mood swings. I wish I could say that I have control over myself, and that I'm able to channel all my useless energy constructively....eventually, that never ends up happening.

Sometimes things do get tough. I'm definitely not one of those people that understands how to deal with situations appropriately. When life hands me lemons....I sulk. Not much of an optimist...if you ask me if the glass is half full, or half empty...I'd definitely say it's half empty.

So...basically I need to learn the art of PATIENCE. That's my major flaw, I have no patience. They say that good things come to those who wait....I'm not sure if I want to wait around for something good to happen....so I'm going to MAKE them happen. How's that for optimism?

Bye for now.